Seance in the Shower

I brought myself so high tonight in the shower, by candlelight, with Cat Power playing in the background.

It was almost as high as Ben used to bring me…

Now I’m lying all twitchy and wide awake in the bed… periodically convulsing in post-orgasmic spasms…

Always so uncomfortable when he leaves me this high…

His body kept me up all night…

No rest… no rest…

That’s why we couldn’t stay together full-time…

We have to be part-time lovers…

Or the heat would get so hot we’d burn up.

Wanted to send him the Cat Power song “Still in Love with You” tonight, but I’m learning, slowly but surely, not to throw myself at men… it’s unbecoming.

I almost threw myself at Brad tonight… begging him to join me in the shower… But then I caught myself.

I decided to bathe myself in my own glory in the shower, with Cat Power blasting and the candles blazing.

I had my own little seance and used my sex magick to draw him in without a word. 20 minutes later he dropped his pants and joined me of his own accord. Said he didn’t know what had taken him so long.

I rewarded him handsomely, sharing with him some of the orgasm energy Ben had so long ago given me, which I had been restoring in myself moments earlier.

I figured Ben had paid it forward with me, I could pay it forward with Brad… and maybe one day Brad can pay it forward with someone else…

Then I realized someone must’ve paid it forward with Ben to start with! Marlena! She had to be the one who trained him all those 5 years after she took his virginity.

I noticed a trick she used on Joseph once… delayed gratification… bringing his orgasmic energy up and up and up and not letting him come back down… making him hopelessly addicted to her.

She must’ve done that with Ben before Joseph came into the picture, and Ben did it in turn to me.

I’ll have to try that more with Brad (leaving him hanging on the near the peak of an orgasm)… and maybe with Ben again one day.

But I’m not going to chase after him this time. I’ll let him “be a man” by letting him chase after me for once.

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